* So, do you remember the 10th of January? I don't think so! Unfortunately, for you it was a USUAL day, but for me it was NOT! Since the first time my eyes came across yours, something inside me changed. It didn't take me a long time to recognize those feelings. It was so clear, I'm LOSING CONTROL over myself!
* When I talked to you, I had a lot to say, but I didn't have the chance. That's why I created this webpage. Nobody knows about it except YOU! I hope it wouldn't take too much of your time to go through it.
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Awal she, ana 3m ekteblek kel hal 7aki la2eno el she yalli jowati ma 3m e2der ensaah abdan, ma 3m yroo7 men bali abdan, w 6ool hal fatra w kel ma shofek bekoon nefsi e7kelek kel she 3m 7esso, betmana te2ri el7aki kello w ma tmelli, w fe sha'3lat kteer 7akaita bel taf9eeel el momel ! ma b3ref lesh bas 7abait e7ki marra w7de kel she jowati ... w t2akadi eno kel kelme maktobe (men albi) ...
Abel ma ebda, ana ensaan b7eb e7ki kel she b albi, ma be8tene3 ene 5abbi aya she jowati law kent 7ases feeh, mshan hek r7 e7kelek b9ra7a kel she 7assait w 3m 7es feeh, kel she jowati ... :)
B9ra7a ma btzakar emta kanet awal mara sheftek fya, bas awal she betzakaro ene kent mara m3 ref2ati 2a3deen w ente mara2ti w 9adafet eno ejet 3aini b3ainek, yoma ma b3ref sho 9arli bas fe she jazabni, 7asait b she mo 3ady, ma 2dert 8awem, tarakt ref2ati w lafait la 7ata shofek mara tanye, la tes2alene lesh, bas 7abait shof 3yonek kman marra, b3dain rje3t w 23adt m3on, fkart shway w b3den nset el maw'9o3 ...
B3d esbo3ain tlate ma btzkr b9ra7a, sheftek byom 5amees abel ma e6la3 men marina, w ejet 3aini b3ainek, w kman 7assait bnfs elshe, she '3areeb ma kan feeni fasro wala efhamo! bas ele btzakaro ene tani yom "eljem3a" kman sheftek w wa2ta 3njad fe she jowati t'3ayar ...
Kanet hay awal marra bshof bent btelfet nazari heek aw bt7asesni bshe '3areeb metel ma 9ar m3ek, w bhadak elyom msheet waraki mn b3eed, kan bas bede et6ala3 feeki! b3ref enek ma entabahte 3laye aw 7assaite bshe, bas ana kent 7abeb bas et6ala3 feeki w b 3yonek!
Lama rje3t 3al bait bhal yom, kent kteer mshawash men jowa, 3m faker kteer eno ana lesh hek 3malt? sho el shi ele 5alani enjezeblek la hal daraje? fkart kteer bas ma la2ait jawab, bas kent mt2aked men shi wa7ed, enek ma kente metlek metel aya 7ada! 6ab3an wa2ta kan ne9 shahr 12 w kan 3andi final el course el awal, w lama 5la9t b a5er shahr 12, kenna ana w ref2ati kel yom bne6la3 sawa, w ma tes2aleni keef, bas ana kent el sha59 ele daiman ma bedo yroo7 3a marina, w 9ert faj2a aktar wa7ed be7eb marina!! kan daiman 3endi amal ene r7 shofek ...
3ala fekra, la hl2 ana ma b3ref aya she 3annek, 7ata esmek! bas mn el sha'3lat ele kteer fakart feeha, eno ente bel madrase aw bel jam3a? aya 9af? w b9ra7a kent 7awel etw83 lama shofek,, Bas kel ele b3refo ene kel mara bshofek fya bensa eldenye w b7es 3a2li b 3alam tani!!
Okkk, berja3 bkamel el 2e99a, bejooz mallaite bas lessa el 2e99a b awalla, b3d ma 5la9t emte7anat '9alaitne kteer fakker feeki, kent 3m etzkarek daiman, kent 3m faker daiman, ana lesh 3m faker feki! ana sho ele jazabni feeki! hal so2al kan 9a3b bas bel a5eer w9elt la jawab, ana lama sheftek sheft b3yonek ensane '3air ba2i el banaat, w betmana tet2akadi eno hal 7aki wallah men alb albi ...
Sheft b3yonek bent betjanen, sheft feeki bent kteer 7elwe, bent roo7a men jowa betjanen, 7asait jowaki fe ensane ma en5ala2 metla ela 2aleeel, 7asaitek bent ra8ye w wa3ye, bt3refe tet9arafi, w aham she sheft jowa 3yonek bent bareee2a! w berj3 b2elek, men jowa rooo7a ma fe a7la menna! hada kello kan abel ma e7ki m3ek, hay el 9ora ele rasamta bbali w ana lesa ma b3refek, bas kent 7ases 7ali mt2aked men hal shi, 3al 3omoom marret el ayam w eja 10 January!
Kanet hay awal mara bshofek bel 3e6le, w kent ana m8arer e7ki m3ek lama shofek, ejet aktar men for9a bas ana tradadet shway, w a5er she 7akait m3ek janb Kurdo, betzakar yoma eno fe aktar men shab daya2ek, w btzakar awal ma eltelek mar7aba t6ala3te feeni b39abye w kente metday2a, w m3ek 7a2 la2eno fe kteer shabab 2aleleen zoo2, el mohem, 7kait m3ek w eltele enek merteb6a, w msheet ana w 7asait bshe kteer daya2ni men jowa, kent kteer mabsoo6 bhadak elyom la2ene a5eeeran sheftek w 9ar feni e7ki m3ek, bas b3d ma 7akait m3ek kteer tdaya2t, yemken la2ene 9ert shoofek metel 7elem bel nesbe ele, 9ert shoof feki shi ma fene ensaah b sohole...
3la fekra, w abel ma kammel el ba2i, yemken kel ele 9ar benna ene 7akait ma3ek 3 marrat mo aktar, w ma fe benna ma3refe aw shi, bas ana kel ma shoof shab beday2ek btdaya2 kteer w ma ber'9a!! la sababain, awal sabab ene 9ert 7esek 3njad ensane ela ma3azze w 2eme kbere jowati w ma ber'9a 7ada yez3ejek, tani sabab enek bent '3er ba2i el banat w a7la menek ma fee! ma feeni et5ayal bent amoora r2ee2a metlek 3m yday2a wa7ed 2aleel zoo2! kent daiman 7es fe she jowati 3m y7arekni mshan ma 5alli 7ada yday2ek bas akeed ma kan feni e3mel she la2eno b bsa6a .. Ana meen bel nesbe elek?
B3d hadak elyom, 5la9 fa8adt el amal w 7awalt ensa elmaw'9oo3, bas ma kan feni! 3njad 7awalt kteer w '9a'3a6t 3a 7ali mshan ensa w ba6el fakker, bas ma 2dert, '9alletni etzakar 3yoonek w '9e7ektek, '9aletni etzkarek w 7es enek malaak bel denye! bada dawamna b a5er shahar 1 , w ma 3ad 6le3t kteer, w kent kel yom etdaya2 lama etzkar a5er marra, w lama sheftek b 31 January, w tla2aina aktar men marra, el she ele jowati kan 3m y3azbni kteer, ma kent 3m et7amal 5abbi hal shi abdan, w l7e2tek w eltelek enek bent betjaneni w betmana tdere balek 3a 7alek la2nek btestahle a7san she bel denye w .....
B3ref eno yoma ma t'3yar she, bas mojarad 7aki jowati w 7aketo, bas btsad2e! lama rje3t 3l bait kent merta7 shway, kan nefsi tsm3e hal she ele b3a2li w b bali 6ol elyom! mara2et awal fatra b shahr 2, w ana kel yom bel kellye sar7aan 3m etzkrek, kano el mo7a'9arat bhal fatra ktaar w momelleen, w 2a'9ait a'3labon 3m faker feeki :P daiman w ana raye7 w raje3 bel 6aree2 besm3 a'3ani w btzkrek, 7ata ref2ati 7asso eno mazaji w nafseeti kteer met'3ayreen, kent b3ref eno 5ala9 ana ma 3ad e7ki m3ek mara tanye w enni kan lazem ef8ed el amal, bas mo hada ele 9ar!
Rje3t sheftek b 21 February, w kaman lama sheft ebtesamtek w 3yonek ma 3ad 2dert et2abbal fekret ene ensaki abdan! a9lan ma kan feeni ensaki!! yemken '3ala6 e7ki hal shi, bas ana me8tene3 eno akbar '3ala6 elwa7ed bye3melo lama y5abbi she be7esso la 7ada tani, ana 3m e7kelek b9ra7a, w ma be5jal mn hal shi! ente a5adtele 3a2li w bali w kel she feeni!! w 8rart kaman marra ene e7ke m3ek, kan fe jowati kalam kteeeer, bas hal marra, lama eltelek mar7aba w t6ala3t b3yonek, 3njad nseet 7ali w nseet kel shi!! 3yonek byes7aro w ma sheft a7la menon b3omri, 7kaitlek 7aki m5arba6 w ene ma 3m ensa w...., w eltele enek mrteb6a kman marra....
6ab3an hal marra kan 5ala9 mafroo'9 ene et2abal el 7a2e2a w 7awel ensa, aw 3al 2alele 5abbi el shi jowati w ma ez3ejek, b3ref ene kteer zawadta w daya2tek kteer, b3ref enek kente kteeeeeeeeeeer mezwe2a b 6are2et raddek w eslobek, w hal she r7 e7kelek 3anno .....
A5er she belli 9ar, eno esbo3ain kent 3m shoofek bel weekend w ana kel ma shofek bensa eldenye, bekoon nefsi '9alni et6ala3 feeki w ma et6la3 bshe tani mn b3d ma shofek abdan, kent 7awel shofek ad ma feeni, koon 2areeb menek b aya shakel, bas kel marra kent shofek martain aw tlat marraat w bas! w a5er she b3d ma 7awalt 5abbi hal she jowati, ma 2dert, w hay ana 3m ekteb hal 7aki 3ala amal enek tshofeeh w te2reeh, b3ref eno '3ala6 ele 3m e3melo, w betmana tsam7eni bas ma kan feeni 5alli hal she jowati abadan!
W hl2 bede e7kelek she tani, bede e7kelek 3annek! awal kelme lazem e7keha enek bent betjanene! betjanene! betjanene! 3njad metlek ma sheft w ana ma 3am bale'3 b7akye, hay el 7a2e2a! Ana 2aleleeeeeen kteer el banat ele jazaboni men abel, w sad2ene ente el wa7ede ele wa9altene la hal daraje!! ma 3m kazzeb kezbet el shabaab ele daiman bye7kooha, hal 7aki 3njad men albi! law kente metel ba2i el banat ma kent r7 ekteb kel hal 7aki w fakker kel hal tafkeer! kteer 7elwe w kteeeeer amoora! 3yoonek bshof feha a7la she bel denye, b7es feha b ensane men noo3 tani, ensane ma fe metla! bede elek kam sha'3le ...
Ente kteeer anee8a! 3njad ana daiman bshoofek anee8a w mrattabe w shaklek 7elo, kel marra bshofek bt2akad men hal shi aktar w aktar! Ebtesamtek a7la men el jamaal nafso! lama et6la3 feki b7es 7ali mertaa7 men jowa! b7es bshe 7elo kteeer ma b3ref ew9efo,, 6are2et 7akyek betjanen, lama 7akait m3ek awal marra, m3 enek kente m3a9be shway, bas 3njad t2akadet men el 9oora ele rasamta b bali elek, t2akadt enek el bent ele jowata malaak, ma tes2aleni keef! 7aset w sheft hal she feeki w ente 3m t7ke!
Ente kteeeeeeeeeer mezwe2a w ra8ye, w hal she 7asseto metel ma eltelek b6are2et klamek, 7assetek wa3ye w zakye w bt3refe tet9rafi, 7assetek baree2a w allah ma 5ala2 metlek abdan!! ente 7elwe w a7la men aya she shefto b7ayati, w t2akadi eno mahma 9ar r7 '9alni 6ool 7ayati etzakar 3yonek!!
Bede e7kelek shii '9arori t3refeeh, ana kteer be7termek w t2akadi enni bfaker b hek mawa'9ee3 bjaddye w ma ber'9a abdan ene e7ki m3ek aw 3abberlek 3n shi ela lama koon met2akked men ele 7ases feeh jowati, w fakart alf marra abel ma e7ki m3ek, w fakkart eza kan hal she ele 3m 7eso mojarrad e7sas w beroo7, aw howe she jaddi me8tene3 feeh, w ma 7kait m3ek ela lama t2kadet mn hal shi, kel ele behemni enek tt2akadi ene kteer be7termek w bshofek bent btestahli kel el e7teram ;)
Yemken t7esseeh jnaan, bas sad2eni 9ert et5yal ene r7 shofek bkel mkan bemro2 feeh! w ana raye7 3al kellye kel yoom bel 6aree2 bt5ayal ra7 shofek! b3ref eno most7eel bas bet5ayalek bkel mkan, w ana raje3 3l bait, w ana b ay mkan, daiman bet5ayal ene r7 shofek bel 9edfe! 7ata lama e6la3 men el parking b marina bemro2 edam el mad5al bet5ayal ene r7 shofek w ente 6al3a! la2enek daiman bbali, daiman 9ortek jowa 3yooni!
Bel yom ele 7akeet m3ek feeh a5er marra "21 Feb.", bel 9edfe sheftek 6al3a men marina w kente wa2fe ta7t yemken 3m testanni aw shi, ma b3ref lesh bas '9alaitne wa2ef foo2 3m et6ala3 feeki, kent 7as bshe 7elo w ana shayfek 2areebe menni, w bnafs elwa2t b3ref enek 7elem ma r7 yet7a2a2, '9alaitne 3m et6ala3 mn b3eed la benama 2a6a3ti elshare3, w rje3t w ana mtdaye2 bas enbsa6t la2ene sheftek abel ma tro7i!
Sad2ene, 9ortek ma betroo7 men bali abdan, w kel ma etzakkarek b7es b she 7elo kteer, a7yanan kteer bensa 7ali w beshrod w bkoon 3m fakker feeki, bkon 3m etzakar lama 7akait m3ek, w lama sheftek a5er marra, w btzakar kel shi! daiman bnbse6 lama fakker feeki, bekoon a7la shi byoomi! w kteeeeeer be7lam byom wa7ed '9alni 2a3ed feeh 7addek 3am et2ammal feeki w b3yoonek w e7kelek kel shi b albiii ..
Men el sha'3lat ele kteer betdaye2ni, ene et5ayyalek metday2a! b7es bshe kteer moz3ej, ma feene et5ayal bent 3asal metlek metday2a! betmana law feeni koon daiman janbek w ma 5aleeki tetdaya2i men shi, aw 7ata law kent b3eed 3enek bas aham she a3ref enek mabsoo6a daiman w ma fe she bel denye beday2ek! la2enek ma btestahle abdan tz3ali aw tetdaya2i!!
Fee she kteer mohem e7keeh, w betmana tefhameeni, b3d kel hal 7aki akeed bedyaki tet2akkadi eno ana ma 7akait m3ek aw 7assait bhal she bas la2enek 7elwee kteer aw la2ene sheftek men barra, sad2eeni hal shi la wa7do mosta7eel ykon elo ma3na w mosta7eel y5aleeni 7es b hek shi jowati, ana 9a7 ma b3refek w ma t3amalt m3ek wala 7akaina aktar men kam kelme, bas ana 7assait feeki b she kteer 7elo jowaki, 7assait b hal she w ana met2aked menno w b3ref e7sasi ma be5eeb bhal sha'3le ta7dedaan ..
El she ele shefto jowaki kan a7la bkteer men eldenye w ma feeha, sheft jowaki ensane kteer r2ee2a w 6abe3etha kteer 7elwe, ensane baree2a, ensane ra8ye w mezwe2a, sheft shi feeki ma b3ref keef byenwa9af, bas sad2eeni ana wa3i w b3ref sho 3m 7es w b3ref sho 3m e7ki, w sheftek men jowa abel ma shofek men barra, bas m3 hek bede 2elek: "jamalek jamaaal mesh 3aady" ..!!
Akeed kel yom abel ma naam b'9alni 3m etzakarek, b'9alni 3m faker feeki kteeer, a9lan ma btzakar emta kanet a5er marra nemt feha bdon ma faker feeki, bt5ayal law kenna sawa adesh r7 koon mbsoo6, adesh r7 7awel w e3mel mshan tkoni daiman mbsoo6a, w hay mn el marrat el 2alele ele 3njad bkoon feha 3m fakker b sha59 tani abel 7ali, 7ata law ma kent mbsoo6 ana betmana ente daiman tkoni mrta7a w mbso6a, w hal she la7alo r7 y5alene erta7!
Eza bent 2aletlek enna a7la mennek, aw 7ada 2allek enek mo kteer 7elwe, 2olelo khalid be2ellak roo7 mooooooot :)) Ente malaak w a7la mn el malaak, 3njad allah ye7meeke :))
Lazem e7ki hal shi, ana b3ref eno kteer daya2tek lama 7akait m3ek aktar men marra, w b3ref eno ele 3m e3melo mafroo'9 ma y9eer, aw bel a7ra mafroo'9 2ool, enne ma b3ref lesh hek 3m e3mel, ma b3ref lesh lessa 3m 7awel, yemken la2eno fe she jowati ma 3m yt2abbal fekret ene ensaki, aw yemken la2eno ma feni ensaki, ma b3ref ... 7awalt kteer ene ensa, 7awalt kteer ene ma ekteb hal 7aki a9lan, bas ma feeni, el shi elle jowati akbar men ene emna3 7ali, w berj3 b2elek betmana tsam7eni 3ala hal shi ...
W a5er she bede 2elek eno fe 7aki kteer yemken ma behemek , betmana tkoni 2araiteeh kello , w ana be3tezer law kan fee aya shi bel 7aki daya2ek bas 7abait e7ki kel she b albi marra w7de, w t2akkadi enek w hl2 3m te2re hal 7aki ana 3m faker feeki, w b3d ma te2reeh r7 koon 3m faker feeki, w bkel w2t r7 koon 3m faker feeki!! w sad2ene ma r7 ensaki!!
Hada el 7aki katabto marra b3d ma 7akait m3ek:
أهنئــك ِ! أمامك ِ وحدك ِ سقطت أسواري، واخترقت سهامك قلبي وأعلنتُ قراري، أنت عنواني حتى نهاية مشواري، وكلما ازددت ِ بعداً .... سيزدادُ إصراري!
أميرتي، لدي لك ِ إعلان! مــن الآن، ومهمـا طــــال الزمان، لن يكون بين خياراتي النسيــان!
أميرتي، لدي لك ِ إعلان! مــن الآن، ومهمـا طــــال الزمان، لن يكون بين خياراتي النسيــان!
Betmana law fene 7asesek adesh el e7sas elli jowati kteeer kber mo she byeje w beroo7, Betmana law feni daiman koon janbek w ma 5alli 7ada aw she bel denye yza3lek, Betmana ro7ek w albek ykono eli, Betmana daiman shoofek w ma en7erem mn shoft 3yonek, 7ata law kanet hal marra ele bshofek fya mn b3eed ana ra'9yan! Betmana tkoni jeze2 men 7ayati w most2bali, w law kente r7 tkooni KEL 7ayati, Betmana ehmeslek w 2elek ene majnooon feeeki!!
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